A Game of Cat and Mouse

I feel like I am always trying to catch up to this thing! Man oh man! I am going to finally finish catching up tonight-- note to self: don't expect to be able to go a whole weekend without internet and then catch up with your blog while in nursing school! Geesh! Homestretch though :) Thank you for being patient with me as I start to get back on track!

This post is for yesterday (Wednesday) :) Almost there! I have found that it hard to sometimes talk about how I have chosen love during the day because I want to keep some people's confidences and other times I have chosen to be extremely patient with someone that I am close to and wouldn't want to hurt them by divulging enough details about it. So keep in mind that while I may focus on one thing, sometimes many other things have happened during that day that I have actively decided to choose love for. Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, and definitely Wednesday I can think of quite a few examples that would qualify for this! So rest assured-- I am not a one-hit wonder. I don't go around every day trying to do one good thing so I can check it off my list-- I am actually trying to choose love ALL day and writing about a few of those choices.

Wednesday I chose love by sacrificing my time for my friend. A lovely friend of mine needed some help in shopping for something pretty darn important. I needed to spent the day studying for the test I had today (Thursday, which I already know I bombed!)... but I decided to go and help my friend anyways. This was pretty tough for me because I'm that overachieving, not happy with anything less than an A, kinda person. This program really makes it tough for people like me! My average amount of sleep per night dwindled down from a staggering 4-5 hours in college to a measly 2-3 hours... with WAY more all nighters. So for me to say "I'll totally take the hit in the gradebook to go with you" was a really big deal. But it was important. Although it causes my brain and heart a little bit of inner turmoil to not be Miss Perfection-- well more importantly/precisely Miss Always Gives 110%-- in school, it was much more important in the grand scheme of things for me to go with my friend. Life is made up of moments. You either choose to be a part of them, or watch them pass you by. When I look back on my life I don't want to think-- I could have been there on the day that X bought that thing but instead I got an A on my test... In the large scale of things, tests don't matter. People matter. All the A's in the world won't be there to comfort me when I am going through hardship or laugh with me when things are going jolly. They won't be there when I need someone to cry my tears and they certainly won't be there when I reflect on who I was able to help. Life isn't about perfection on some test, it's about being present in the moments while they are in front of you. Tomorrow is never guaranteed. If I died tomorrow, what would all those A's have gotten me? How many moments of importance would I have missed to get something that meant absolutely nothing in the end? Well I am not saying that studying is not important, or that I will choose not to do it when something else comes along... but what I am saying is that there are moments in life that are worth getting a C over. And if choosing the C means that you can show your friend that they are really important in your life... then it's super worth it.